New Years 2012/2013 and a Few “Resolutions” if You Wish (279)
New Years Eve was spent at my bff’s house along with a whole bunch of awesome people. There were games, there were conversations, there was a whole lot of hours of guitar playing, there was a movie and there was a movie marathon after breakfast on New Years Day. It was awesomesauce/amazeballs/__________. It was just a really good time.
But now I feel the anniversary of my birth looming ever closer. It’s creeping it’s way towards me and reminding me in other, subtle ways, that my days are numbered – 279 to be exact (from yesterday since this was really going to be yesterday’s blog).
But the great thing about a new year is that it is fresh with possibilities. There is the possibility that this will be the year that I find or discover the man I might marry one day (please let this be the case because I sure am ready now!). This year brings a whole bunch of possibilities to lead worship and get better at guitar playing. Maybe I will finally start finishing my bachelors since I’m pretty much one with VLI. I will be moving in a few months and maybe this will be the time when I get my own place instead of living with roommates (it would take a miracle/divine intervention). Possibly…the trip to Oregon/Washington will be one of the best experiences of my life. Who knows?
I know that I am in a really good place emotionally and I’m ready to start a new chapter. I’m probably never going to ready to give up my youth though and I accept that. I never want to lose the silly side of myself that tries her best to not take herself too seriously. I want to retain my perspective that if I can make people feel even one little iota of how loved I feel by God and friends, then the day will have been a good one. I want to keep making people laugh but I want to be able to take sarcasm and joking as well as I can dish it. I want to love more and love better and hopefully be loved in return. I know God’s love is the most important and I realize all love originates from Him but I honestly don’t think God would have put other people on this earth if He didn’t intend for us to also want to love them and be loved by them. I don’t want to lose my spontaneity or my passion for anything I’m passionate about. I want to recognize when I’m wrong faster and apologize as soon as possible, as often as possible, and strive to not hurt others. I just want to be better all around and continue to grow into the best person I can be…even if that person is a few years older than I care to admit to.
Behold! Photos from the party and the day after: