So my bestie forwarded me an email about punching fear in the face and joining a revolution of people who are setting a goal and working towards achieving that goal, no matter how scary it might be or how crazy it may seem.
So naturally, I decided to face my biggest fear and challenge myself to write songs. Only three songs though since three doesn’t seem super intimidating to me. I can’t decide whether or not to just make them all worship songs or what kind of music I actually want to write. I know I want it to be of the indie folk-rock kinda scene-ish persuasion but we’ll see how it comes out.
Here’s the scariest part…once I’m done writing the songs, I’m going to play them for people! Eeeeeek!!! At least I have some poetry to kinda fall back on and work into songs. The hardest part so far seems to be coming up with strumming patterns that don’t sound like other songs I know. Maybe that’s why so many worship songs sound similar? We worship leaders get used to playing other people’s music and then write stuff that sounds the same-ish?
Idunno. But anyways I’ve now publicly announced to my partner and to everyone who reads my blog that this is my goal. So you might be able to expect some non professional sorta crummy demos to be posted in about a month and a half or so.
Now it’s time for bed. I feel like an old person. I got home after work and was so tired, I feel asleep before 9pm! Oops. Now I’m up and I need to try to sleep instead of staying up reading and watching Back to the Future.
Tonight, after work, was worship night band practice. I feel like it went pretty well. We went through the majority of the songs, had some dinner, recorded a song, made up some funny songs, and did some dancing. Musicians really do make the best friends! They won’t laugh at you for making up a weird song or singing a song for no reason other than wanting to. They’re crazy, silly, artistic, and fun to be around.
Oh and my particular worship band is filled with amazing people who are some of the most encouraging people I know. They wouldn’t give up on me and they are convinced that I am amazing and need to say that I’m amazing. I don’t think I’m amazing. I try really hard though and put my heart into what I do so maybe they can see that and think that’s amazing? I’m not really sure. But I am in awe of them.
I’m proud of Kyle aka Prince Charming for learning an amazing solo on his harmonica and for being so kind and encouraging and offering his house up for practices. I’m so proud of Crystal for playing her guitar while leading worship and helping us with harmonies and just being a generally great person to be around. I’m proud of Lindy for always encouraging me and giving me gentle constructive criticism to help me learn and grow. Not to mention the fact that she has an amazing voice that I just love singing with. I’m super proud of Jason for jumping in and helping out with the band but also for offering up his home so generously and giving me rides to his house from work. He’s a totally understatedly awesome person. I’m proud of Roni for playing with us but I’m super proud of her for being willing to sing a song with us this coming Sunday!!!! She sounds great and I know she’s going to be great. And I’m super proud of Bruce for being willing to play rhythm on my acoustic guitar for a song and generously allowing me to play his awesome electric guitar. Next up, he’ll be singing and so will Jason! I can hope at least.
I couldn’t ask for a better group of people to practice with and grow with as a leader and as a worship band. It feels like we’re family. 🙂
There’s nothing else to really say at the moment. I’ve been getting way too few hours of sleep lately and it’s starting to effect me. I can’t wait to sleep in on Saturday. Only one day left of work!!! I’m hoping that Brandi, Bruce, Roni, and Lindy will all be able to get hired on at work. I want all my friends surrounding me! Hahaha and the Vineyard is slowly taking over my workplace. Work was okay today but not great. I was really tired and I was doing kind of boring work but, I did get to go to a meeting, and I get to work with great people so at least that makes up for not having an amazing day like I normally do. Still, my worst day at my current job is still better than my best day at some of my prior jobs. Gotta love that!
Time for bed now. Crystal, if you’re reading this, my vocal warmups wouldn’t download. I’m going to have to get them from you on a flash drive tomorrow. 😦
Peace, love, and listen to Cold War Kids,