Well, this is it. My last day as a twentysomething.
I really would like to have some sort of epic last journal entry but I just don’t have one.
My twenties have been hard. Sometimes they were downright horrible. Other times were the best of my life this far. I’ve traveled up and down the California coast, to the South, across the country to the Midwest, and across the world to Belfast, Northern Ireland.
I’ve made some amazing friends, fallen in love, gotten my heart broken, found God, lost my way and sorta found it again, and discovered that I have the strength to pull through difficult times with enough help from my friends, family, and God.
I’ve had a couple of okay jobs, a very horrible job, and finally have a job working for a company I love. They’ve all taught me something new. I’ve had a lot of money, a little money, and practically no money. Somehow, I usually have enough money to get by.
I’ve taken risks. I’ve had some wins. I’ve had some losses. I’ve wished and hoped and seen some come to be and others have remained a dream.
I’ve lost two of the most important people in my life – my grandpa first and my grandma second. I had the privilege of holding a newborn baby, hours after she was born. I’ve met some amazing little girls who aren’t my own nieces but whom I love just like they were. I see hope and a future in them. I can only imagine the life ahead for them and how they will grow and experience some of the same things I’ve experienced.
I’ve learned that, as alone as I feel sometimes, I’m really not that alone. There’s always going to be someone to reach out to. Things aren’t always going to be easy but they won’t always be tough either. I’m not a twentysomething anymore but I’m still me.
I don’t feel like I should be thirty but I am. Time to deal with it and face this new day tomorrow with a hope for a future that is fulfilling, meaningful, and full of love.
Sometimes having an “adult” job really sucks -or- In retrospect, getting laid off can be a good thing (83)
I work in Payroll and today was the first day that I wasn’t exactly thrilled with my job. Up until now, I didn’t really personally know anyone who got “termed” but today I did. I don’t really know the person super well but we had hung out outside of work. So we weren’t super close but I could still say we’re friends. It was awkward and sad to have the knowledge that they weren’t going to have a job at the company anymore and I knew about it before they did. But I knew this was part of the job and I also knew that this was going to be the most difficult part of my job for me.
I’ve never been fired before but I have been downsized. It came at me and all my coworkers from left field. We were working hard and our branch was doing well when, all of a sudden, the regional manager comes in, talks to the manager for a few minutes, our manager comes out of his office and calls a meeting, and the regional manager says.
“I’m going to keep this short and sweet. As of right now, this branch is closed. You have 5 minutes to pack up your desk and leave. Your final check will be sent to you through the mail.”
And that was it. It was at a crazy bad time of my life for that to happen too. I had just signed a one year lease on an apartment that I loved and I was living 2,000 miles away from all my friends and family and in a really bad relationship with a guy who just got fired – on the same day that I got laid off! Luckily, my mom came out to visit for my birthday a week later and she kind of rescued me and told me I could move back home to Cali and start over. So I did.
I guess, in retrospect, getting laid off was the best thing ever to happen to me. It was the catalyst that set in motion some really good things that would happen a few years down the road. It still sucked for a really long time (like 2 years) after but it happened and now it’s in the past so…there ya go. God used it for good and I ultimately was able to get out of that relationship which I probably would be miserable in right now had that not occurred.
But back to my current job. I really love the people I work with and the “family” like atmosphere we have. But the downside, which I know clearly see, is that, when you’re that comfortable with people, it’s hard to see them leave.