Man oh man do I have the travel bug right now! I blame the #STARTexp and #SS peeps. They all live all around the world and that makes me want to visit all of them! People say a lot of stuff about how horrible facebook can be but, honestly, I’ve found more community in that group than I have in some other areas of my life. They’re a great group of super supportive people who only wan to be uplifting, encouraging, compassionate, silly, and sarcastic with one another. It’s loads of fun!
But I’m soooo bummed that I can’t travel to see them all. I already have a friend who lives in Atlanta who I want to visit so there’s the whole “I want to go to Atlanta” bit. Then, there’s the allure of the white sand beaches and the crystal clear water of Florida that makes me wanna fly there and visit real bad! Seriously, I would go to Florida tomorrow if I had $700 for my plane ticket and transportation money and money to stay in a hostel. Hint hint…my birthday is coming up soon after all. Want to fund a trip to Florida for me?
And then there’s Nashville, TN!!!! Oh to be in the land of soooo much amazing music and talented musicians and rich culture. Not to mention the whole Start Conference going on this weekend. But I wouldn’t even care if I couldn’t go…I just want to be in that city!!! Granted, my musical talent is no where near the caliber of all those musicians but I would love to try and hang with them and catch some concerts.
And Colorado…oh how you tempt me with all your beauty. Portland, OR is always going to be my go-to city to visit because I love oh so much!!!! And hello…I would get to meet Genevieve West there and see Xavier and get some more tattoos! Dude…Portland is me just without the beach (which I would miss like I miss now but obviously I got used to being so far away).
And, as boring as it may seem, I really want to visit the midwest. I’d like to go back to Dayton, OH and see where I lived for a year. That year held so much pain and so many trials but I really want to see the good in it and not just remember all the pain.
I want to go to Texas so I can visit my original #STARTexp partner, Sarah! She’s awesome and I want to get to know her in real life.
There’s a million other places I would like to visit (Thailand, Belfast, Italy, France, Spain, Greece, South Africa, etc) but I’ll have to be content with just going to San Francisco in less than a month. I am really looking forward to going. I can’t wait to see my BFF Bethany and, hopefully getting to meet a few STARTers.
If you don’t know what the #STARTexp is, you should google it and look into how to get in on this awesome ride! And read #allthebooks by Jon Acuff too! It’s really changed my life and I can see a little bit more of what God has in store for me in the future. I’ve gotten bolder and stronger in my faith and I feel God’s presence more than ever before.
I love it and I love all of the my #SS friends! Hopefully we will get to be 3D friends sometime soon!
PS Here’s a link for the song I put on YouTube. There isn’t a picture, it’s just black with audio because all I’m working with is an iPhone. 😉
At least, not in the way that most people think.
I just had a really good day with God. I discovered some awesome new worship music courtesy of my #StartSingle friends and Bethel Music. Bethel’s new album, Tides, is one of my favorite albums of the year! The song “I Can Feel You” pretty much speaks exactly how I feel. It really put me in touch with how wonderful God is and how in love I am with Him.
That love I was feeling all day totally shined through in my worship leading. The ladies at Acton Rehab were so amazing tonight! I played a new song and they loved it and were able to sing along! I was so worried they wouldn’t follow but they’re all so encouraging and eager to worship and praise God that they just blew me away! Before worship started I even got to share my testimony with two of them. I forgot how it even started but all of a sudden, there I was, telling them how I was totally lost and had hit rock bottom and God swooped into my life and saved me. I also explained how that first rock bottom wasn’t enough and it wasn’t until I hit my second rock bottom low that I finally surrendered all of myself, body, heart, soul, and future to God and how amazing it’s been since.
Yes, it’s been hard. It’s actually been extremely hard and lonely at times and I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve cried over stupid things that I wanted even though I knew they were wrong. But there’s been a whole lot of good too! I mean, how many times can you say that you’ve been in love with someone you know for certain loves you back, absolutely unconditionally? I can’t say I know many people who do that. Just God. Today, all I felt was the overwhelming love of God and just how lucky I am.
I’ve felt love before…I was in love with a man who I almost married. But that love was tainted with his lies, manipulation, and abuse so it doesn’t feel real. It never really felt totally secure. I mostly felt like a prisoner.
God’s love feels different. I don’t have to second guess it. I don’t have to ask any “what if” questions. I don’t have to do absolutely anything but receive it. We love because He first loved us. God is pure, perfect love. And I’m in love.
Here’s the video link for the song by Bethel Music in case you want to listen to it. BEWARE!!! It might change your life.